JINXED

8.08.08

I felt both down and exasperated. I think I woke up today at the wrong side of the bed. I was kind of annoyed perhaps because everything didn’t turn out the way I had expected it. But later on everything went to normal. I revelled in it too much that I wasn’t able to anticipate the bad things that were supposed to come up.

The day started with an annoying scenario. I went to the office and it was brownout. I was the main subject Mom was there and I know she wanted to wring my neck for some reasons. All of the male species in the office became so mean. They kept on teasing me about him. I know it was only a joke. At first I was still able to handle the situation… It was funny anyway. But what was funny turned out to be irksome. It was no longer a joke; it was some serious matter that surely has a grave consequence. Mom didn’t want it. I got scared. I know I was getting jinxed.

When I went home, they put me in the hot seat and gave me a very long homily. They reprimanded me of my actions and behaviour. It was a tear-filled moment. I could understand them. They were just becoming super strict because they just want to keep me away from harm. I just hated it when mom told me that I was worse than the other girls she knows. According to her I was such a coquet … It was a stereotype. I felt like a dagger was buried in my chest. It was so excruciating. She doesn’t know me that well so she can’t say that. But all of us have our own shortcomings so I tried to understand. I know they only do this for my own good. They just loved me so much.

When Mk and I had the chance to talk, I cried my heart out. I was so upset that time. I didn’t know what to do. I fumbled for words. But the gist of it all was that I told him to assure me he you won’t leave me. He acquiesced.

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Thank you Mk… I’m so glad we found each other.

I shared my sad story with you and I know you felt bad too. I’m sorry… Perhaps that was really meant to happen. As what I’ve said before, everything happens for a purpose. I know it’s for the better. Let’s just stay strong. With our love for each other, I know we can make it.