BOOZE

08.04.08

Last night was one of my worst nights ever. One intoxicated, perverted, decrepit man was beside me in the jeepney. I was so scared; my adrenaline rushed to its highest level and I was so cautious of what might happen. I was so infuriated. I swallowed a curse. I punched him in my thoughts. If the circumstance got worse, I planned to yell at him so he would be sober. Pathetic. What a freak.

Inside my mind I was thinking about you. I hated the distance between us. I know if you were here that would not happen. I am sure you would protect me and take care of me. I wanted to cry… I wanted to tell you something traumatic happened to me. But unfortunately, I can’t contact you. 3 missed calls. I wondered where you were.

I formulated some hypotheses. Maybe you were busy doing something else. Maybe you were out there somewhere… Still I hoped I could make you aware of what had happened. It was so mean. I wanted to pour my hurt feelings out. The power of mental telepathy. Yeah right! I tried it several times. “If you’re there, please keep in touch… Please do….” Unconsciously, I also uttered a prayer for it.

I asked for signs. If 3 missed calls and some sort of mental telepathy won’t work, I would sleep with a sigh. Although it’s hard, I would just pretend to be numb and I would compel myself to painstakingly forget about the upsetting scenario. It was so cruel. Damn it.
However, good things still happen. Out of the blue, I decided to insert my smart sim and without even crossing my fingers, my prayers were answered. God is really omniscient. He knows what I need. He made way for us to be connected. Well, thank you Lord. Please forgive me for my cuss words.

So right there and then, I saw your message and after a couple of seconds, you called me. Thank you so much. Even if I wanna think that the mental telepathy paved way for it, I am so certain that the prayer did it… That’s the power of prayer. No load and charging needed, but the line is always lucid and available.

At last I was able to blurt things out to you. I was so aware that you were so worried about me. I’m sorry for giving you anxiety. But from the bottom of my heart, I thank you for helping me alleviate the pain that I felt. Thanks for giving me your LDLC (long-distance love and care). I am really grateful for that. I am so blessed coz I have a MK who thinks about me and cares for me from afar.

I realized I was mistaken when I said that last night was one of the worst nights ever. Wanna know why? That night I remembered that there is someone who's always extraspecialsuperduperconcerned about me. I think that’s enough reason for me to smile now... :)