ANGST

8.06.08

I woke up today with headache throbbing in my skull. I couldn’t understand why. I also slept early last night and woke up today 5:30 as usual. Uh, never mind.

A lot of things lingered in my hypothalamus - mostly scattered thoughts, unanswered questions and suppressed emotions. Whether I liked it or not, I have to deal with those. I cannot dictate my brain on what to think anyway. Still my nerves felt like they were going to explode like an atomic time bomb any minute from now. I felt like I was being tortured by some merciless creature.

A little later you called me up, a smile lit up my face. It was good to hear your voice again. But suddenly I noticed you were not talking much. I guessed you were not feeling well. Then I figured out I was right. You told me you were having some chest pains. My smile suddenly turned into a frown. I was so worried about you. I felt so bad that I’m not there to take care of you. Anxiety ate me up. How I wished I could teleport from here to there just to see you and make sure you’re ok.

I was all ears. I was so worried coz I could no longer hear your voice on the other line. That was so terrible. I hoped the pain would vanish in the soonest possible time. All I could do was to say a little prayer for you. I asked the Lord to touch you with His healing hand so you would feel better.

The call was unexpectedly cut off. Still I waited with prayerful heart, hoping you would call back and tell me everything’s alright now. Please let me know immediately…

An hour later, you called up again. I gave a sigh of relief. Knowing that you’re ok now made me feel calm. I thanked God for answering my prayers. Then I continued praying that He would send you His angels to guard and protect you from any harm. “Please make him safe always...”